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So, you've made it this far, have you? It takes dedication to find this page hidden deep within the Tagonist Knights Website.

Congratulations! 

As a reward, I present to you five new ways to immerse yourself within this novel. Some of it is insightful, other aspects of it is meant to make you laugh and smile. Hopefully, by the time you're done, you'll be eager to explore the book if you haven't already, or take a moment to read through it once again knowing what you do now.

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--- SPOILERS AHEAD ---

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Seriously, go read the book, enjoy the mystery of the experience then come back here for insight into the details of how it all played out.

 

Thank you!

“Life is more than just survival. It is about staying true to who you are and finding hope when it feels as if there is no reason to continue.” - Mysterious Voice

Say Hello - The Protagonist of Prisoner of Silence

“Every waking moment of my life since the day I was born has been one endless chain of evil acts being inflicted upon me.”

Avita

Tortured Prisoner

“Humans are easily the cruelest, hate-filled, malicious, and horrible species on the planet. If you want a source of true evil, it’s the dominant species of our planet.” - Mysterious Voice

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“I’m glad that there is at least a spark of hope still buried underneath all of that pain, that you haven’t given up yet. You’ll need that if you’re going to survive this.” – Mysterious Voice

Origin Story:
Back in College

I wrote a story called "64" when I was in college. The idea was sixty four people with super powers. Some more impressive than others. Some evil, some good, some neutral. There was also thirteen "demons" invading their world. One would lose their powers or get killed (more often they died), and then someone else with unique abilities would vanish. When thirty two individuals remained, suddenly they came back. When they did, the outer boundaries of reality shrunk in size. The Universe becoming nothing more than our galaxy.

This happened again as thirty two became sixteen. Again, their reality shrunk in size down to just the solar system. This continued from sixteen to eight, eight to four, and finally the last two remained. The last surviving hero is confronted by a man named "Mr. X". This mysterious figure transforms into a teenage boy. The hero represents hope. The boy represents his depression and how destroying the world he had created in his mind, was his way of destroying his lingering reasons to live. He is working towards the goal of committing suicide.

That is the origins of Prisoner of Silence. That's why there is a number at the beginning of every scenario. It is a representation of the current human population on Earth that when halved, will eventually lead down to two. All because of this story I had come up with in college.

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Origin in "64"

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Haunting Nightmares

Origin Story:
A Horror Story

When I began Tagonist Knights Publishing, I needed a horror story to go with Raven, Knight of Shadows. Thing is, though, I'm terrible at horror stories. At least, I thought so. It was my weakness when it came to writing various genres. So, I dug up this concept from "64" and took a new approach with it.

I refused to write the book until I knew its purpose and its ending. That's why I typically don't like the horror genre. It's just blood, gore, and pointless death. That was an issue I had with "64" until its end. So, I began there. Going into the book I knew it was about a woman struggling with depression. Someone who had led the worst possible imaginable life. Where nothing went right for her. Everyone in her life stole from her, abused her, and did everything they could to destroy her.

I began with 8,589,934,592, the closest number to the global human population that was also derived from 2x2x2x2 and so on. I added up how many times it would take to reach 2 by dividing by 2 at a time. That gave me the number of scenarios I would be working with. Then I began making a listing of trauma this woman endured and how I can have a symbolic scene concerning that trauma. For example, a drunk woman representing her mother. A man on drugs representing her father. Fading away to nothing due to memory being symbolic of her grandmother's Alzheimer's disease.

Origin Story:
A difficult path...

Originally Avita would wake up in a prison of sorts and see other people in other cells nearby. The "voice" she speaks to is a man in the cell next to her. I quickly threw out that idea to make it more of a mystery. Who is this voice? What's going on? Since there was only one main individual that was the focus of the story, I wanted someone for her to interact with. Someone to communicate with and interact with, to explore her thoughts with.

Going into the book the goal of the story was that all of this was her confronting her past and the trauma she endured. Moments when she finds happiness like flying for instance, reflects her embracing reasons to be happy in her life, to live it fully. The "they", the ones punishing her being her nightmares, the negative emotions, all this self hatred was the threat she was contending with.

I knew that she was in a car accident, that all of this was in her mind, going into writing the book. I kept throwing in misleading information in the form of "she thinks maybe... that this is true." The unreliable narrator in that she doesn't know what's going on and is only guessing. My way to mislead the audience without lying to them. 

I didn't know he was dealing with cancer, that he was struggling to live through the treatment until nearly the end of the book. I did want a deeply spiritual bond connecting these two people that explained how they were able to communicate during their struggles.

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Our own worst enemy.

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Never give up hope.

Origin Story:
In the end...

The original title was "Countdown". The final title reflects that she's stuck in her own mind, torturing herself as it is mentioned at the end of the book. My goal was to create horrifying image to leave psychological scars in people's minds concerning being haunted by what I wrote.

I knew the ending before I began writing it which is rare for me. I typically have no clue where the story is going to go or how it will end until I get there. An original ending was Avita moves in with Edgar and they start a new life together. However, I quickly discarded this concept in that  I felt it took away from her empowerment. She needed to do this on her own, to prove her strengths as an individual without relying on someone else for help.

That's what this book is for me. It was my hope to help those who haven't dealt with depression to have an insight to the struggle someone is going through. It's an internal battle in fighting one's innermost nightmares, their past trauma, and memories that haunt them.

 

I wanted it to be a story about hope, being able to overcome these internal threats and to find the strength to endure as we find a reason to be happy again.

Lastly, this is a story of empowerment. Avita had nothing. She had everything taken from her. In the end, she finds the strength to take on the world again, hope rekindled, and a yearning to take on the challenge that is life.

“When hatred becomes all-consuming, you lose yourself in it. It slowly destroys you from the inside out.” – Mysterious Voice

Easter Eggs and Inspiration

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Life Finds a Way

Avita means "life". Originally that was her real name, but later changed it to be symbolic of her want to live.

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Encounter #1

Avita lost a baby after being attacked by her boyfriend. This is revealed at the end.

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Encounter #2

The "spider-demon-baby" is her fear that a potential child may grow up to be just as evil as those who tortured her.

Rifle Bullets

Encounter #3

Avita is haunted by memories of when was babysitting a little boy that accidently shoots himself with his father's gun.

Swimming Pool

Encounter #4

Memories of being shoved into a pool by a bully, nearly drowning, is reflected in this encounter.

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Loss of a Loved One

On page 26, the voice's story about his grandmother dying is based on my own memories.

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Encounter #5

The muscular man represents the multiple men in Avita's life, including her mother's boyfriends, who hit her.

Pitbull Portrait

Encounter #6

The boy killing animals reflects Avita's memories of her brother doing something similar to pets.

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The Loss of a Friend

The voice's memories of his cat dying in his arms, is based off my own memories.

Vaccine

Encounter #7

The man eating the pastry is a reflection of her father's drug addiction that killed him.

Wine Bottle

Encounter #8

The woman drinking who shoots at Avita, represents her alcoholic, abusive mother.

Garden Soil

Encounter #9

Waking in a coffin, buried alive, these are thoughts Avita had concerning death, being a corpse.

Crying Doll

Encounter #10

The animated doll is connected to the only doll she had as a child, one that she found.

On Fire

Encounter #11

Based on a memory of a friend of Avita's brother who was killed in a fire, her brother scarred. This is revealed at the end.

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Encounter #12

The corpse she encounters is derived from a memory of when her brother showed her a dead body of a homeless man.

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Encounter #13

Avita's roommate committed suicide by hanging herself, inspiring this event.

Kids Running

Encounter #14

This reflects her yearning to grow up quickly, only to realize she was miserable as an adult.

Tapas with Ham

Encounter #15

The invisible creatures are symbolic of Avita's yearning to cut herself, often in attempts at suicide or self mutilation.

Reflection

Encounter #16

Avita hates looking at herself in the mirror, a lack of self esteem, her self confidence stolen.

Skeleton

Encounter #17

Avita hates her outer appearence, so strips away everything but what remains underneath the surface.

Young Woman

Encounter #18

Avita feels that she is constantly being asked to sacrifice a part of who she is just to survive.

Skydivers

Encounter #19

Avita's fear of heights, of falling to her death, is personified in this experience.

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Encounter #20

Waking up with amnesia is due to her grandmother having Alzheimer's and losing her memory of Avita.

Dark Ocean

Encounter #21

A return to Avita's concerns of drowning, and the confrontation with a scenario that makes her feel trapped by those fears.

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Encounter #22

Avita often feels alone in a crowded room. Even surrounded by others, she feels isolated and unwanted by them.

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Encounter #23

This is based upon her memories of having only paper dolls to play with, no other toys when she was a child.

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Encounter #24

Those coping with depression often feel paralyzed, sleeping often, a lack of energy, an inability to move around much.

Grilled Steak

Encounter #25

Avita realized she was taking, never giving back, from those offering her help. It is symbolized by a hunger.

In court

Encounter #26

As she mentions, she could have lied and saved her brother, or tell the truth as she did, to help the victim of his crime.

Security Guard in Uniform

Encounter #27

Avita has spent a lifetime being guarded, protecting herself from threats. Being like that can be exhausting long term.

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Chooes Life

Gwidon means life, just as Avita does. It is a reminder to the audience that these two people are struggling to stay alive.

Video Game Developers

Encounter #28

This experience reflects her yearning to escape reality through online gaming.

Lorries Parked In Line

Encounter #29

Being in a truck, driving at high speeds, ending in an accident, is a reflection of how her uncle had died in a similar way.

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Encounter #30

Avita is put on stage and treated like an object, which she feels men often treat her as, nothing more than a sexual fantasy.

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Encounter #31

A broken heart inside of a chest. A play on words being that we, humans, have our heart in our chest. Her heart is healing.

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Encounter #32

This is Avita confronting who she could have become, a dark, twisted, hate filled psychopath. The "evil" version of her.

Fictional Character

She Chose Death

Thana is short for Thanatos, which is a name for "death". Avita means life, Thana is her choice to embrace death.

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Quoth the Raven

Edgar is named after Edgar Allan Poe, one of my favorite authors and well known for his horror stories. An ideal choice.

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Kingdom By a Sea

Annabel gets her name from Edgar Allan Poe's Poem of the same name. It is said he was speaking of his lost love.

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Famous Reporter

The woman doing the interview with Annabel is named after Lois Lane from the Superman Comics.

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He Will Survive

“I have it on the highest authority that he’ll be alright.” is a reference to a quote from the movie: Date With an Angel.

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Guardian Angel

The personal trainer, Clarence, is named after the angel from the movie: It's a Wonderful Life

And now... My Favorite.

Spider-Corpse-Baby or Spider-Demon-Baby was inspired by a close friend of mine. When asked what she fears most, her response was three things: Dead bodies, evil children, and spiders. So, I found a way to combine those three fears into a single, horrifying image which wasn't even in the original draft! I added it in the second draft.

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“Failure can be a teaching tool if we use lessons learned correctly rather than allowing it to crush our hope.”  - Mysterious Voice

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